Little one

 Little one,

    I catch myself thinking about you as if you were growing inside my belly.
Although you are not - I know for certain you are already growing in my heart.
 I am praying for you little one and for the loss I know is to come.
It wasn't until recently that God allowed a sweet friend to remind me that no matter how young you are when we get to welcome you- you indeed will still feel a deep loss.
   For if you are already growing in a belly somewhere you are dancing in the rhythm of her walk
You are smelling her smells and hearing her voice and despite being so young you still know you are hers I pray for our bond my little one - that you will feel safe in my touch and loved by my smell.
I anxiously await to hold you and feel your warmth. To introduce you to your sweet big brother who is sure to kiss you lots :) To see your daddy smile when you cuddle with him and to see all our family and friends  coo over you .
 I pray your daddy and I can help you grieve and heal when the time comes and that you may have peace at why the Lord choose you to bless us with.
I pray for your birth mom whether she knows about you or not.
  I pray for her heart to heal as she learns your kicks. I pray that the Lord would use your daddy and I immensely in her life. That he would pour down peace on her heart as she chooses us to care for you. I pray her heart would heal as she grieves your loss and yet rejoice in her own bravery to give choose life for you. I pray that through life's journey you will always respect your birth mom for the choice she made for you. I pray you will never doubt our love for you despite whatever differences we may have.  I pray you would find purpose in the world and experience growth through your hardships.
    So wherever you are you rest in God's hands and we rejoice over the day that is to come when he entrusts you to us. What a beautiful day that will be
 Love your mommy